Monday, December 2, 2019

India Program 2020

This years India program will be at Arunachala (Tiruvannamalai, Tamil Nadu) running March 31-April 7.  We suggest that people plan on arriving by March 30 if possible as the 31st will be a full day.  People can make their onward travel plans for the 8th (April 7th is purnima and we'll be doing parikrama and staying that night).  One's commitment and dakshina is due by February 1st.   One can contact Aadya ( with any questions or for particulars.

Monday, July 1, 2019

Cleveland Program

This years program in Cleveland will be September 23-29.  As with previous years, those who have already recieved initiation are welcome to attend the entire length, while anyone new who would like to either visit or recieve an initial diksha may come September 23 and 24.   Those seeking continuing works of previous empowerments may get those teachings, and I'll also be giving some new dikshas.  Those who would like to attend can contact Aadya at for all the information.    

Wednesday, July 18, 2018

India Program Update-Ujjain

I've changed my mind concerning the February 2019 India program.  Instead of going to Arunachala, this program will be in Ujjain.

There are many powerful places here especailly for tantric sadhaks, so this will also be a sadhana program.   Of course, this is the place of Shri Mahakaaleshwar Jyoti Linga, as well as two Shakti Piths Harsiddhi and Gadkalika.  Harsiddhi is associated with the King Vikramaditya, while Kalidas got siddhi at Gadkalika.  While Mahakaaleshwar is the most famous Shiva temple, there are 84 Mahadeva temples in this area representing differing aspects, so we'll probally visit some of these.  The Mangalnath temple is supposed to be the birthplace of Mangal, so it is especailly auspicious in term of graha sites.  Another old temple is Chintamani Ganapati which we may explore.  Nearby Ujjain is the famous Kal Bhairav temple where the murti actually consumes liquor which is offered, so we'll definately go there.  Sandipani Muni's ashram is in Ujjain, and Krishna and Balarama spent time here with this Guru.  I'd like to visit this place, as well as the Samadhi of Matsyendranath which is nearby Ujjain.

While there are certainly many powerful places to visit, this will be a sadhana program and not a site seeing trip.  Our main areas of sadhana will be Chakratirtha and Gandharva Shamshans, which are said to be powerful creamation grounds.  These are also places where various tantrics and aghoris often practice, so those attending this program will be expected to move with a certain integrity and firmness of mind.

Those wanting to attend should let me know at the earliest possbile time.

Monday, July 2, 2018

Upcoming Programs

I'll be available for a program in Cleveland from September 10-16.  Anyone seeking an initial initiation to the path can come for the 10th and 11th, while sadhaks can come the entire week.  I'll be able to provide any secodary initiations to those who have met the commitments and require it.   People attending this program will also be given a protector/guardian work, which is a type of energy that one can always rely upon.   While the various Vidyas have protective qualities, having a specific protector has a unique quality and function.   They are very useful in helping a sadhak overcome inner and outer obstructions, as well as protecting one from both subtle and material harm.   This program will also have the theme of "vows" where we'll discuss their meaning and implication.  I'll be focusing tantric vows and discussing large scale "view based vows" such as the wrathful vows.   After a proper understanding of implications, those attending will also have an oppurtunity to take vows if they so desire.

The second program coming up will be February 2019, and this will be at Arunachala.  This will be a sadhana program with a big and healthy dose of Shiva.   We'll do the Giri Pradakshina a few times,  and there will be a lot of meditation work.  This place is ideal to both the introduction to and abiding in pure and primordial awareness.   I've written in various places about this power place, so those interested can read.  There needs to be a minimum of 3 people for this program, and a max of 5.  We'll need advance notice/commitment as we'll be renting a cottage or house.

Monday, December 11, 2017

Priority and Clarity

From birth till death is just a blink of the eye, so it is very important to gain clarity.   Old people always say how fast life goes and young people never listen.   People just get swept up into the momentum of conditioned life with various desires without even truly understanding what they want or if what they are told to want is worthy.   One should at the very least take some time to examine what is important to them, and see if how one is moving in life reflects those priorities.   Many times people on their deathbed not only have regrets, but also clarity about what was truly meaningful (and often the regret is of not giving more time/importance to what was truly meaningful).   Therefore, a good exercise in properly examining one's life and priorities is to bring forth the presence of death which breaks momentum and gives perspective.   If one is completely earnest in the practice, then one should feel like they are dying, and from this view life should be regarded.   This practice is good not only for helping one gain clarity about priority, but also in stripping away other voices of influence.  While the notion of an "authentic self" cannot stand in the face of reality (and indeed the voices of others are entangled in notions of self), there is an authentic voice and/or expression which is effortlessly present with deep integrity.   For most, their treasured uniqueness isn't very unique, but rather a collection of conditioning via biology, parents, and culture (with even the apparent struggle against or rebellion being influenced and within a conditioned paradigm).   When we strip bare various notions of self, we also strip away the various influences.   When speaking about meaning (and what in one's life is truly meaningful), it is important not to mistake sentiment for wisdom, as the function of conditioning is to give emotional and reinforced response.   Your family, your job, your country, these are all meaningless.  This is not to say that one cannot demonstrate or discover great meaning through them, but that they have no inherent meaning in themselves.  The previous sentence is certainly a qualifier that pacifies the sentimental response, and most people tend to think they are not most people, but for most people those aspects remain meaningless.  This is because all those aspects are tied and given importance via a non-existent self, and also because of labeling (labeling is an important aspect of conditioning whereby a collection of sounds (words) which are without meaning or substance in themselves are given great emotional import/meaning.).  If your father or daughter is hurt or killed, it is a great tragedy effecting you, but if it happens to someone else's family, then you don't much care.  Partial cannot co-exist with the pervasive.  If through the medium of family, one discovers a pervasive love that is impartial, then family can be said to have meaning (although the label would still be without inherent meaning).   The exercise with death should also show one that one's family will go (or you'll go from them).  Not only will one be separated, but one will be useless to help them (until one is impartial).   Culture is another form of conditioning which gives people large blind spots.  There are aspects of life that if pointed out one would say "of course" because thats just the way it is.  While unseen, these factors largely influence not only how people move in the world, but also what they give value to.   It is very instructive to encounter a different culture to expose one's own blind spots and areas of life that were never questioned.  Interestingly, it is very easy as an outsider to see the hangups and unquestioned aspects in a different culture.  As the world shrinks, there is also a general culture which is unquestioned like religion.  This would be hard to define, but it is like the general canvas of a painting.  Even people who disagree vehemently are painting on the same canvas, just on different edges, as they all acknowledge certain assumptions.   However, one looking to find true authenticity need to burn down even the canvas upon which various views dwell.   While those adhering to more conventional models may take offense at their family, job, and culture being called meaningless, the conventional model via conditioning always seeks to define meaning or meaninglessness.  For example,  if there is a get together with friends or family and you miss it, only to be asked 'why didn't you come?"  If one says "I had to work", then this is final and the matter is dropped.  However, if one says "i was meditating" or "i was resting" etc., then this will not be seen as a good excuse.  The reason for this, is that one is given meaning and the other not (and work culture is a vast area of identity conditioned via indoctrination, propaganda, and is a huge blind spot which layers other areas of culture).  Now lets say that one did indeed attend this get together, and one gets to talking to someone there.  One is asked "what are you up to?", and the reply is "i've been studying philosophy", which makes the person ask "where?"   If one says, "at the University of So- and So", then this will have meaning, but if one says "you know, just at my house in my free time", then this will get an eye roll.  This is because the culture defined meaning.  So getting back to the matter of one examining and determining how to move in life and what is one's priorities, the tangent which demonstrated the various means of influence is important because those voices need to be striped.   To apprehend the authentic, one need to recognize influence, and when something arises to see :"that is my mother speaking", "that is america or india speaking", or "that is just an assumption or hearsay", then clarity dawns.  One should even strip clear of all spiritual notions that one has.  Often, one hears something and it may resonate, but if its not experienced or realized, then it just remains a concept or can even be an obstruction.  With experiment, if the researcher already has notions of the result, then this pollutes the findings.  If something is true or truly realized, then it will be there.  If something needs to be reinforced or affirmed, then it is not worth keeping.  Throw everything into the fires and see what remains.  Even genuine realizations needs to be refined in those fires.  One seeking truth should never be afraid of being exposed, one should take real joy in it, as it is how one grows.  After examining how one wants to live and move (based on seeing what one has as their true priority), then one will move with real confident and persistence.   One's determinations should be actionable, and should be written down.  People make the mistake of thinking certain aspirations are not actionable just because they may be internal.  For example, maybe after doing the practice one determines that love is one's biggest priority.   This should not be left as some kind of abstraction. One could determine that since it is a big priority that they will sit 20 mins everyday to cultivate it and make it expansive.  With practice, one could resolve to move with an expansive heart in all encounters of life.  It is interesting to note that the conventional model would suggest an action like going to feed people at a shelter or something like that.  While this would certainly be a good action, hidden underneath this model is the view that love isn't something real, that is is just a sentiment (therefore the only real thing would be to participate in materiality).   One may determine through the practice some very practical changes to make like moving to another location or visiting somewhere.  One may even see that they need to leave a relationship or stop hanging out with some friends.  Clarity may dictate additions or subtractions, however when there is clarity, then actions follow smoothly.  Too often, people don't progress or mature properly because they are not clear.  There are too many competing voices.  Lack of integrity is primarily due to two factors, lack of clarity and not admitting errors (a future topic).   Hopefully this meandering post helps with the former.   Even for one not spiritually inclined, it is certainly worth a few minutes to examine how to most authentically move in one's life.  Otherwise, we are just pushed to the grave via signposts of parents, school, work, relationship, old age, sickness, and death.   Just move death up a few places, and see if a new perspective is gained.   

Wednesday, November 8, 2017


When speaking about mantra with kumbhak, it is important to have some understanding of both outer and inner tantra.   Kumbhak means pot, and in the context of sadhana refers to the retaining of breath whereby the body becomes the pot.  When working with a Vidya, the form of the Devata is the outer tantra, which means that the one doing the sadhana "assumes" that form.   The mantra is the subtle vibration and expression which corresponds to the form.   Mantra is also (or can be) the link/pin between the outer and inner tantra.   This means that mantra can get one's vital elements to resonant in deep accord with the devata.  One may put one's mind in full concentration on a Deity, but if it doesn't "hit home" (i.e. if one's vital experience is completely different), then there will be obstruction.  The inner tantra refers to three main elements which when integrated form the complete expression.  These elements are the vayus, nadis, and bindus.   When the inner and outer tantra is in accord, then there is complete integrity of experience.    There are several ways to bring about this integrity of experience, and each need not be independent of the others.   Deep sincerity is even a path of integration, as one in this state will be very open, this openness in terms of inner tantra, loosens the patterns/holds of the vital elements which allows them to seamlessly integrate.   Just the mantra japa (with outer tantra) may result in inner tantric accord, but one would really needs to have openness and then put the entirety of their Being in line with the mantra/devata.  The more forceful way of developing this integration is performing the mantra with kumbhak.  Before even starting practice with kumbhak, one should have a good amount of experience in the vidya and complete at least one purashcharan.  Mantra when combined with kumbhak gets refined in unique ways, and the vital elements get refined as well.   With the pot breath, the prana is pushed down, while the apana comes up, both meeting/mingling in the navel area.   Ultimately,  the energy should enter the central nadi, but traditions vary on particular processes and kriyas.   The perfection of kumbhak leads to a deeper understanding and interaction with the bindu principle which is the very essence of Being.  Bindu is also the vital principle in conception and forming new life.   Bindu is also great bliss when experienced, and is the gateway to one's enlightened essence and compassion (as essential/vital quality rather than mere sentiment).  While understanding the gross aspects of biology and conception (via seed and egg), bindu is the subtle principle which sparks consciousness and life.   The bindu principle is a whole topic in itself, and is at the heart of several sadhanas which are widely misunderstood (most notably consort sadhanas), but suffice it to say that the mastery of kumbhak is the quickest path in greater understanding of bindu.  One round of mantra on one kumbhak is the beginning level, so one practices to get to this level.  Five rounds on one kumbhak is intermediate level, while ten plus shows some mastery.   While the length of the mantra can differ (and to some extent determine one's immediate capacity), ultimately it is not much of a factor once a deeper understanding is gained.  Proceeding in this more forceful way can be dangerous, so it is advised that one is guided by someone with real experience.   Moreover, when conducting sadhanas which quickly hasten result, one should understand that everything is hastened.  Therefore, latent tendencies, emotions, and even sicknesses may arise.  It is very important that once one starts certain sadhanas that they are seen completely through.  Much of the so-called "testing" that a sadhak may endure before receiving certain works, is about determining one's persistence, as persistence is very important for many practices.  

Monday, October 16, 2017


With unitive wisdom, there is great potential to seek and gain inspired company.   This means that once one understands that everything manifests from the primordial ground (i.e. one's own Awareness), the obstruction of doubt is removed which allows one to invoke presence (via presence) without limits.   While settling in Awareness, one needs only to invoke with openness, connect, and then resonate (i.e. find energetic accord with).  This is a great way to receive blessings which further progresses one on the path.   Many, even having been on the path for sometime, still have the subtle feeling that "it" is somehow elsewhere.  The "it" in this case refers to one's own enlightened nature, as well as embodiments of it (either devata, guru, or various saints).   When one overcomes this obstacle of view, then there arises confidence.  To invoke in confidence (and love) holds a power of command and immediacy.  The invocation stemming from perceived weakness or need lacks immediacy and stems from a perceived self (which interferes with openness and connection).  The "beggar" approach seems more humble, but is arrogant, while truly embracing one's nature seems arrogant but is humble.   The understanding of "without limits' means just that, and any element of Awareness that manifests, may do so.  If one wants to understand or seek the company of any Devata then one can do so.  In this case, the principle of openness should be complete, in so far as one does not dictate in any way what that manifestation "should" be like.  Like a double blind experiment, even the views of the "researcher" should effect result.   There does need to arise an intuitive point of connection for the initial invocation (which may require some type of view), but even this should arise in an openness and a willingness to experience (as it is).   Humans have a great legacy of awaken ancestors, and one may connect with various saints (even after they have left this world).   Often times, these adepts who have taken human incarnations are easier to connect with then devatas.  There is even the view  that these beings are greater, since they were willing (or have) experienced this realm.  To have a certain view from a throne is much different than having that same view while in the muck.  From the perspective of non-conceptual Awareness, there is neither time or space, so presence need not be influenced by either.  When one is feeling stuck or stagnant on the path, doing the practice to receive blessings from great beings will remove obstacles and propel one forward.  (In some cases, one may even receive subtle teachings and dikshas.)  If one reads about some deity or saint that inspires, then why be satisfied with just information and words, when one may put their entire being into that presence (i've written about surrender and accord, which is very applicable in these terms as well).   Those beings who have taken as their heart path the intention to see all being liberated are more than happy to receive those of great sincerity.   Like osmosis, if one continually puts their being in line with a Guru or a deity, then without effort, one will begin to take on the same qualities and realizations.